Saturday, October 31, 2009


The thing that I've been working on since July ended tonight. It went better than I ever would have imagined that it would go and it proved a great many things to me that I was unsure about in my life.
Not that what happened was the great defining moment in my life or anything, but it did prove that I can do the things that I set out to do.
Which brings me to what I have decided is the theme of the 2009-2010 year, proving that I can do things that I have never done before. The first of those things was a musical arrangement that I did that worked...proving that I could. The second was this photo shoot tonight, proving that I can both be Rachel Zoe and a get 40 people in costumes and makeup to look good for a picture that's been in the works since July. Right. It's pretty much November. 4 months of planning. And it worked...proving that I could do it.
This isn't an ego thing. Not in the slightest. I don't think I am so great because I was able to do these things. There are more things on my to-do list for this season of my life that I hope I am able to do. But it won't make my head bigger. It's just so reassuring to know that when I set my mind to something big, I was able to get it done.
And that feels great.
Granted, the adrenaline that I've been running on is now completely drained and I am headed for such a crash. But man, it will be such a good crash. Sleep would be perfection.
Life's good. I've got good people in it. The gang is still there, and I've got a new friend or two that make my life interesting again and fun. I think that's necessary. So is getting things done. That's necessary as well. So is watching Will and Grace. That is necessary because I feel like I haven't in so many months and perhaps my witty isn't on the top of its game because I don't have Karen in my ear.
OH! Speaking of Karen - I aided in getting a girl fired the other day! Right. That happened and she no longer is employed by the great establishment of Chili's. That was also necessary.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

6. Again.

You know, I went through a time in my life when I firmly believed that there was a purpose for different people being a part of my life. I don't know it was just the ideology that I adhered to at the time to make myself feel like the happenings of my life would transcend the situation I was in or something, but I knew that people were in my life for a purpose.
That person never left me. I'm still that guy. I still believe that the people that I invite into the inner depths that are Ryan are taking up residence in there for a reason. Maybe I don't know at the time, but eventually, I figure that I will find out.
But here's the kicker. When it becomes a reality and you can see the purpose, that's the kicker. And it kicks you in the tail and you don't really know what to do at that point. How did I know that? How did I know that it would be so vitally important later? I don't know. But it's so important that I can't even begin to describe.
6 has been a number that has come up time and time again in my life. Recently, it's been a bigger part. Well today, I was able to add another 6 to that list of sixes. It took 6 years. Doesn't really matter for what, but it did. And that is extremely fulfilling. Just when I see one of the 6s in my life being tattered and crumbling, I'm given a new 6 to cling to and know that it's important. That's reason to wake up again tomorrow and have hope.